please please please help me. Reply to me with your discord or something so I can PM you. I KNOW this is exactly what is going on.infinityzer00000 wrote: ↑Thu Jan 24, 2019 8:23 pm Hi everyone,
I tend to come back and post once in awhile and I figured now would be another good time. I'm not sure how many people I've reached with my suggestions to look at this from a different angle as it has worked out quite well for me. No depression, anxiety, or OCD and my sexual function is improving pretty regularly along with my emotional range. I used to be in the same position as a lot of you and while I don't want to offer false hope for anyone I am a testament to the fact that this approach was effective. If you're going to try things you might as well ad this to the list especially if you decide you've had enough and want to check out. So here it goes...
Trauma. Trauma. Trauma. There's a reason you can't feel things or enjoy things (anhedonia) and why your sex drive is none existent and that's because I believe you're all severely traumatized. It took me about 9 years before I was about to kill myself with nembutal before some therapist gave me hope with the concept of complex trauma. I was at the end. I was exhausted with all the insomnia and depression and stress and just absolute hell I was living in day to day. When the idea of trauma was first suggested to me I actually smirked and thought it was a joke and I'm taking the nembutal I ordered from China. The therapy when it started proved there was some truth to this. It made me aware that there was an immense amount of pain buried so deep in my heart that my body just shut down and coming off the drugs allowed all the pain to resurface at once and take everything offline, my emotions, libido, confidence, sexuality, excitement etc.
I came from a bad home. I didn't think it was bad, but it was pretty damn bad and that young version of me was in agony and I forgot all about him just like my parents did. Since I started my path to healing about 2/2.5 years ago I have become a completely different person. While I still struggle with the stress some days everything in my life is an order of magnitude better. I sleep, I have my sex, I'm kicking ass at my job, I'm enjoying things again and my emotions are coming back to the surface. I am learning to love myself for the first time.
Now the current state of your mind might skip over this completely because that's what I myself would have done in your shoes. The OCD and all the other symptoms make it seem like there really is no hope in hell that this could work, but what have you got to lose? There's no drugs necessary, just your own willingness to persevere and heal. I have answered a few messages from a couple of people over the years and I have pointed them in the right direction.
The bottom line is that your body is trying to protect you from pain by shutting things down.
Good luck everyone. Imagine those people that committed suicide when it turns out there was a solution? Unlocking the pain deep within you and facing it head on. Give it a try that's all I ask.
For me, when I got off SSRIs, everything came back pretty hard. I got my emotions back pleasure, sexuality, etc. Also it came with DPDR, severe anxiety and panic. I KNOW I got traumatized from weed DPDR (reason I went on SSRI), and from many other things over the last 3 years. Trauma in me is for sure. My PSSD symptoms ketp coming after each huge panic and overwhelming emotions after getting off SSRI, each time one of these most severe episodes happened, the PSSD symtpoms get worse and worse. OCD too.. etc... many small traumas and big. Fuck. A lot of times I think omg its PSSD its a chemical cause etc.,, but i Have many expereinces which point to trauma. Pls reply to me and help me pls
I really want ot get rid of this ASAP and move on with my life.