How much is PSSD interfering with your everyday life (1-10)?

[DoIt]

So, does PSSD cause you any troubles besides sexual ones?

I can't enjoy things like before (music, movies, porn... can't even laugh as before), and I don't have my old emotions like before PSSD, day to day is struggling and it's really hard.
I feel weird emotionally, It's hard to describe, do you feel like that?

[iull1k]

So, does PSSD cause you any troubles besides sexual ones?

I can't enjoy things like before (music, movies, porn... can't even laugh as before), and I don't have my old emotions like before PSSD, day to day is struggling and it's really hard.
I feel weird emotionally, It's hard to describe, do you feel like that?

Exactly like this.

[celexahell]

10. My life is fucking destroyed. FUCKING destroyed. There's FUCKING nothing left.

[Tenyears27]

I feel like so far, pssd has systematically destroyed everything i took for granted, and ive lost my fiance, my job, my car, and im about to lose my house. Suicide is something my mind comes up with i think because it would be more peaceful.

On the other hand, i cry all the time now. The first 5 months i couldnt cry about anything, but now i cry alot. And my libido is having spikes in the morning, when this happens my feet feel warm and my heart is racing. I have very vivid fantasies like i used to.

Its simply not enough to pull my mind out of the darkness pssd has left in its wake. I was dealing with alot before this happened. Im affraid im out of energy

I also cant get into movies anymore, like theres a passion in me thats just not there anymore. Its very important and i no longer have access to it.

[infinityzer00000]

8 for me. The reason I say that is similar to Tenyears27 in that I have lost a lot of passion in life and my libido as well. I used to have so many hobbies and a lot of ease and motivation with which to do them. I think about suicide quite regularly, but I still managed to keep my job, car and I just bought my own small place. It's not easy when you feel as depressed as you do to keep all your shit together but I still manage. Relationships are a difficult aspect when dealing with the passion, love, libido situation. It has cost me a few relationships, but I still can and do have sex fairly regularly I would say even if I am not really feeling it. I am currently dating a girl who is extremely understanding but I cannot reciprocate the feelings that she has for me.

I still have this hope that is inside me. I really do. Hell if I didn't then there is a good chance that I would be dead right now. Self inflicted. It's been years since I woke up with a morning erection and last night it happened and it has happened before. It is still quite rare though.

My thoughts are that if I can deal with my sleep issues and try my best to overcome my depression I can regain some semblance of my former self. I still laugh pretty much every day which is a great emotion to have. I would say laughing still feels pretty good.

I have been in therapy and one of the interesting things that the teachers have said is that my emotion reasoning is off. Before the withdrawal on the medication I got excited and it was easy to know when I was enjoying myself. Now it is definitely a lot more difficult, but I just have to be consciously aware of what I am doing and pay attention to those things. For example; I force myself to go out and play hockey with the guys from work every Monday when I am not feeling it. When I first started playing I would consistently look at the clock and ask myself when is this going to be over, I feel so tired, I'm bored, I want to kill myself. All those thoughts would run rampant through my mind, so I started picking out the small victories and focusing on those. When I scored a goal I would fucking smile and everyone would cheer for me and we would fist bump. It made me feel good, but afterwards I would go back to thinking the worst shit. I told myself to deal with those thoughts later and focus on how good I felt when I scored a goal.

Picking out the little victories is what is going to keep us going guys. I know some of you are worse off than me and I can't imagine the pain you're going through. Celexahell I can't imagine your anguish and misery brother. We are all in this together.

Sorry for my rant.

[Ghost]

On Suicide: I can't think of a much better way to put it.

catalunya wrote:
some layperson wrote this and i saved it quite a while ago as i thought it was really well written --

"It is the most profound choice you can make in this world, whether to leave it forever, or stay and be a part of it until you cross the threshold, however that may come about. It is a powerful, unalterable thing that you are considering, and no one but you, your very self, can make the decision for you. There will be lots of opinions, and lots of advice, and lots of tactics thrown in your direction if you bring up these of thoughts ending yourself to others, but if you are wrestling with questions that amount to "what's the point?" that point essentially has to come from you and what you ultimately care about.

Suicide doesn't erase just some of your suffering, it erases everything you know about and interact with in reality. You cease in every identifiable way. If there is anything in this world that holds interest for you, if there is anything you care about or enjoy, be it a sensation, an idea, a person, a grudge, an activity, a colour, a vendetta, the shimmer of silence, a mote of sun crossing your ceiling, you have to realize that all of that, all of it will be gone if the light goes out in your bodily case. Relationships come and go. Love originates but it also fades. Meaningful connections to people and their institutions and projects are hard to forge with any reliability. I do not dispute any of this. I do not say that there are not fundamental flaws in the system of life which we were never asked about participating in in the first place. But better times can come as well as bad ones, and this is your one shot at getting something good out of it before it's over; because it's over for all of us, sooner or later. Why rush headlong into the unknown when there is no guarantee that it is any better? If you're counting on oblivion you may be disappointed; just because death is an impenetrable barrier doesn't necessarily mean that it is the end; and that's worth considering before stepping out to search the great beyond.

What I'm really trying to say is, if life is terrible, seek help within its framework before you start planning to seek a path that would cause you to exit that framework altogether. Think of it as time you're not going to miss if you're dead, it's a bonus round. There are lots of good doctors working in the world today who want to help make your experience more supportive and more hopeful than it might seem right now. There are medications that can turn your inability to cope into something else, something that finds grounds for growth and improvement in daily life. Call a crises hotline if you are feeling dire. Let someone hear what has been going on in your head. Often if we are asking questions like "why" and "how" can it be so hard it is because we are struggling for answers that can only be found here. It shows that we don't want to go. Not just yet."

Then a bit I pulled from my own journal:

I've done a lot this part year. Traveled, dated, lived, cried. I went though some extremely dark times, but I also had some of the most profoundly beautiful moments of my life. Times when things finally "clicked". I view the world so much differently than this time last year.

I started thinking about things differently after the darkest days of my depression. Having come to a point where I could have tossed in the towel and given up on life, I now have come to view each moment differently. Because I so easily could have ended things right there, I see every moment after those as a gift. It's almost like free time. It doesn't matter if some days are hard because all the good moments are a bonus. When you have nothing to lose, you have everything to gain.


NEVER give up on life. Then Celexa wins.

[scot]

Great post.