Hints for OCD medication that don't cause PSSD.

[petsz1]

Hi there!
I had OCD 4 years ago that I cured 99%,and now it came back because a trauma,and i panicked in. So it is my mistake also. I got 1 year of Sertraline treatment(Teva) and at this time i had very little libido and didnt masturbate or searched for a gf also. I tapered off very slowly with my GP and everything came back,i never had any sexual dysfunction,i fell in love also. Right now I'm on a aurorix cure(moclobemide) because I said to my therapist that i fear off the sexual dysfunction. I didn't know that this existed,when i searched sertraline on the internet and read the Wikipedia about it. But my very problem is my OCD,it don't go away,7 days ago,it seemed to be better,but no. Im feeling shit again,and have suicidal tendencies due to the relapse. (My mother taking paroxetine,from 2002 and if she comes off it she dont have any pssd,she said to me because I was crying in fear.) I really forgot what feels to have OCD,i was this cured,it was a normal life.. I noticed that,about a week ago my erection is not as strong as it was before a 2 week ago,BUT if i have spontaneous erection it is good. Maybe the mild depression and the sexual themed OCD comes in while i watching porno,im very anxious while watching it,because the triggers. I think thats the cause is not as good as was before OCD came in my life,a month ago...
My question is,there is a drug THAT dont cause PSSD for OCD that works?
I want to try natural treatments,i had migraine before the OCD came in my life 4 years ago. It has a thing with low serotonin so i think my ocd is also a low serotonin thing.
My dopamine level was always high,i never had depression alone,just 4 years ago when i didnt know what was this. Right now I'm trying probiotics,studies show that certain strains is as potent as fluoxetine or escitalopram. They produces serotonin,gaba, interacting with the vagus nerve,with the brain gut axis. Then i want to try vitamins. Inositol,then 5 htp,L cysteine(NAC), going to meditate. If nothing works then I'm going back to Sertraline. This is my last resort... I hope that natural treatments helping. Right now im on a moclobemide cure for my mood,but it isnt helping,using it days ago. Want to try the OCD breathing,studies show that,in 3 patients it lowered the symptoms to 0. With the others they earned significant reduction on the Y-BOCS scale. I want to be med free again,and happy with my life what i was 2 months ago. Please help,im very distressed and hopeless..
Could natural serotonin boosting work,SSRIs do the same just the technique is stopping reuptake so the synaptic cleft fills up. If i boosting serotonin to high levels with NAC or with 5 HTP i could reach the same effect on my OCD?