Dangerwood intro / Near natural recovery

[dangerwood]

Dangerwood Intro / Near Natural Recovery

Hi everyone. Been lurking this site for a couple years now but for good reason. Believe me I have wanted to post for a while now about my story / near recovery but I wanted to wait several months to make sure 100% that what I’m telling you isn’t just a phase I’m in only for it to soon fade out and turn to shit again. I’ve had PSSD for the last 2 years, and am one of the lucky ones who has improved over time. This year especially I have noticed great improvement. This post has been hard for me to write because to be honest I’m not a huge fan of this forum, I find there to be too many negative posts, but I remember how much hope these success stories gave me when I was at my worst so I feel I need to get my story out there. I truely feel I am on the home stretch of my recovery, there’s just a few things that need to be tweaked in order for me to be completely satisfied. Even if things didn’t get any better, which I of course expect them to, I would still be very content living the rest of my life with the way things are now, but obviously I hope to keep improving. I have tried a couple of different supplements before but I wanted to write this before I try anything else as my recover thus far has been pretty much all natural.

First some background info on myself. I was on escitalopram for about 2-3 months in mid 2016 (19 at the time) and noticed diminished sexual functioning early on. I wanted to get off because of this but my doctor insisted it would go away after stopping. I continued to worry it wouldn’t so I stopped cold turkey and unfortunately the side effects remained. I had symptoms such as weak erection, numbness in genitals, no sex drive, very little and water like semen, no morning erection etc. (All of these things have improved) I thankfully have never experience emotional bluntness, anhedonia, inability to enjoy music, love etc; all my problems are purely sex related.

When I first discovered pssd online I was near suicidal. Especially the first 6 months. But as time went on I was able to move on with things and ended up having the most amazing year of my life in 2017. I don’t know what it was, but I was just so motivated to get off antidepressants and prove to myself that I can beat my depression, even through this new hell I had discovered with pssd. I was determined to get the best out of myself in all areas of life like gym, work, social life etc and once I put an effort into this my depression disappeared. I believe this is a HUGE step into healing your pssd. Fix your depression first, then worry about your sexual functioning. I know they go hand in hand but just try to forget about sex as best as you can. Your stress is only making it worse. I have been depression/med free for 2 years now and I’m never going back.

Now for the improvements. I was lucky to notice windows very early on in the process of pssd. I know a lot of people here have not yet experienced windows or did not get them until a couple of years at least. But in the very early days of my pssd I would have weeks where I would think I was cured, only to slip back into what I discovered as a wave a week later. This was a regular thing for a long time until my windows (good) started becoming more frequent and waves (bad) a lot less frequent. I read a post saying it’s like taking 2 steps forward, 1 step back. Then 3 steps forwards, 2 steps back... and so on. Even though this was frustrating, progress was still being made. My baseline was pretty bad for a while. I could still get myself off but I wouldn’t rely on it for sex. I’d have to be in a window to have sex.

Nowadays I don’t really notice windows. It’s as if my windows just extended to the point where it became my new baseline. I still have occasional waves however, but the switch is now mostly turned on. I’d say it’s about 80% ‘windows’ and 20% waves. It sucks that I sometimes still have periods where my functioning and libido isn’t that good, but it’s so much better than being like that all the time, which is what I originally thought I’d be like when I first discovered pssd. To put things in perspective, I’ve had about 20 days of poor functioning in the last 5 months. The rest of the days have been normal. So 20 out of 150 days where my functioning was not good. You can do the maths on that.

What improved:
-Morning erections were non existent in the first year and a bit, now this year especially they have become frequent and have gotten stronger as well.
- ability to get erection from thoughts without touching myself / random erections
-semen colour and volume has improved a lot. I can now squirt my semen instead of it just dribbling out. Was basically water and very minimal during the first year
-sensitivity / numbness has improved a lot. Still not 100% as sensitive as before, but I can still get good pleasure and actually last a lot longer now which is a huge bonus.
-erection strength has definitely improved although still not always 100%. If it’s not good I can always rely on generic cialis to help me out, but it’s normally always hard enough for sex. First year it was semi hard, now it’s pretty much always hard. I also no longer have moments of complete impotence whereas in the first 18 months that was common.
-orgasm feels great, it’s sometimes hard to picture it being any better than what it is now but it’s been so long it’s hard to remember exactly how it felt before.
-libido isn’t as strong as it used to be but it’s improved a lot, especially this year. I still find myself masturbating 1-2 times a day like I used to. Sex is still my motive to talk to girls, and a lot of times I can’t resist the urge to masturbate at work because I get so horny. I was basically asexual in the beginning stages of pssd. For some reason I find myself the most horny a few hours after waking up, so this is when I choose to masturbate. (In my office at work lol)

This last secret to my success may not be something some of you want to hear, but I’m just stating what has worked for me personally. I have prayed to God everyday and put my faith in him and I really believe he has healed me. I’m not trying to force my beliefs down your throats, but for me my faith in God has been the number one factor in my recovery. I respect everyone’s opinion. Believe in whatever you want, this is what I believe has worked for me.

I could literally go on for hours about pssd because it’s something that consumed my whole life for so long. Nowadays I try and stay off this forum as it brings back some very bad memories and I find a lot of the posts to be toxic, but occasionally I will check back in. There’s really zero need for me to come on this forum anymore, and I now understand why so many people who recover never report back, so much respect to the people who do post their success stories here. I try not to think about pssd anymore, I have moved on and am very happy with my life. The only times I sometimes get upset about it is when I get into a bad wave for a couple of days, but it’s only a reminder of how far I’ve actually come. I used to be in a ‘wave’ the majority of the time with occasional good windows, now it’s the complete opposite. I’m so proud of this hell I have been able to overcome. PSSD has literally changed my whole perspective on life and the things I take for granted. It’s too much to write here so maybe in another post, but it has definitely changed me for the better. I know I will continue to make good progress with time because it’s still only my second year with pssd, my improvements have been basically all natural, and lastly because I truely BELIEVE I will heal.

Stay strong everyone, I am praying for you all. So much can change in just 1 year so hang in there. Seriously I thought I was done for, but now here I am at the peak of my life; the happiest I have ever been. PSSD has been a truely humbling experience and when you reach this level I am at you will understand what I mean. Dangerwood out

[Snake]

Great post, thanks for your time. Need more positivity on this forum - that's a fact.

[Ghost]

Thanks for posting. We need more of this.

[hs1312]

Hi Dangerwood. Did you also experience testicular shrinkage?

[dangerwood]

Hi Dangerwood. Did you also experience testicular shrinkage?

I haven’t really noticed any shrinkage in my testicles but it is possible they may have shrunk a little bit.

[Ciprofloxacin]

Hey. I’m glad to saw someone healed by his own. But I was hoping to see some information about you. I had browsed the propeciahelp, and they really have very informative templates in users’ post. How old are you? Your body type, recovery progress, your cause of starting to meds(depression/anxiety/long term or short term), daily habits, etc.

[Coraggio]

Dangerwood Intro / Near Natural Recovery

Hi everyone. Been lurking this site for a couple years now but for good reason. Believe me I have wanted to post for a while now about my story / near recovery but I wanted to wait several months to make sure 100% that what I’m telling you isn’t just a phase I’m in only for it to soon fade out and turn to shit again. I’ve had PSSD for the last 2 years, and am one of the lucky ones who has improved over time. This year especially I have noticed great improvement. This post has been hard for me to write because to be honest I’m not a huge fan of this forum, I find there to be too many negative posts, but I remember how much hope these success stories gave me when I was at my worst so I feel I need to get my story out there. I truely feel I am on the home stretch of my recovery, there’s just a few things that need to be tweaked in order for me to be completely satisfied. Even if things didn’t get any better, which I of course expect them to, I would still be very content living the rest of my life with the way things are now, but obviously I hope to keep improving. I have tried a couple of different supplements before but I wanted to write this before I try anything else as my recover thus far has been pretty much all natural.

First some background info on myself. I was on escitalopram for about 2-3 months in mid 2016 (19 at the time) and noticed diminished sexual functioning early on. I wanted to get off because of this but my doctor insisted it would go away after stopping. I continued to worry it wouldn’t so I stopped cold turkey and unfortunately the side effects remained. I had symptoms such as weak erection, numbness in genitals, no sex drive, very little and water like semen, no morning erection etc. (All of these things have improved) I thankfully have never experience emotional bluntness, anhedonia, inability to enjoy music, love etc; all my problems are purely sex related.



When I first discovered pssd online I was near suicidal. Especially the first 6 months. But as time went on I was able to move on with things and ended up having the most amazing year of my life in 2017. I don’t know what it was, but I was just so motivated to get off antidepressants and prove to myself that I can beat my depression, even through this new hell I had discovered with pssd. I was determined to get the best out of myself in all areas of life like gym, work, social life etc and once I put an effort into this my depression disappeared. I believe this is a HUGE step into healing your pssd. Fix your depression first, then worry about your sexual functioning. I know they go hand in hand but just try to forget about sex as best as you can. Your stress is only making it worse. I have been depression/med free for 2 years now and I’m never going back.

Now for the improvements. I was lucky to notice windows very early on in the process of pssd. I know a lot of people here have not yet experienced windows or did not get them until a couple of years at least. But in the very early days of my pssd I would have weeks where I would think I was cured, only to slip back into what I discovered as a wave a week later. This was a regular thing for a long time until my windows (good) started becoming more frequent and waves (bad) a lot less frequent. I read a post saying it’s like taking 2 steps forward, 1 step back. Then 3 steps forwards, 2 steps back... and so on. Even though this was frustrating, progress was still being made. My baseline was pretty bad for a while. I could still get myself off but I wouldn’t rely on it for sex. I’d have to be in a window to have sex.

Nowadays I don’t really notice windows. It’s as if my windows just extended to the point where it became my new baseline. I still have occasional waves however, but the switch is now mostly turned on. I’d say it’s about 80% ‘windows’ and 20% waves. It sucks that I sometimes still have periods where my functioning and libido isn’t that good, but it’s so much better than being like that all the time, which is what I originally thought I’d be like when I first discovered pssd. To put things in perspective, I’ve had about 20 days of poor functioning in the last 5 months. The rest of the days have been normal. So 20 out of 150 days where my functioning was not good. You can do the maths on that.

What improved:
-Morning erections were non existent in the first year and a bit, now this year especially they have become frequent and have gotten stronger as well.
- ability to get erection from thoughts without touching myself / random erections
-semen colour and volume has improved a lot. I can now squirt my semen instead of it just dribbling out. Was basically water and very minimal during the first year
-sensitivity / numbness has improved a lot. Still not 100% as sensitive as before, but I can still get good pleasure and actually last a lot longer now which is a huge bonus.
-erection strength has definitely improved although still not always 100%. If it’s not good I can always rely on generic cialis to help me out, but it’s normally always hard enough for sex. First year it was semi hard, now it’s pretty much always hard. I also no longer have moments of complete impotence whereas in the first 18 months that was common.
-orgasm feels great, it’s sometimes hard to picture it being any better than what it is now but it’s been so long it’s hard to remember exactly how it felt before.
-libido isn’t as strong as it used to be but it’s improved a lot, especially this year. I still find myself masturbating 1-2 times a day like I used to. Sex is still my motive to talk to girls, and a lot of times I can’t resist the urge to masturbate at work because I get so horny. I was basically asexual in the beginning stages of pssd. For some reason I find myself the most horny a few hours after waking up, so this is when I choose to masturbate. (In my office at work lol)

This last secret to my success may not be something some of you want to hear, but I’m just stating what has worked for me personally. I have prayed to God everyday and put my faith in him and I really believe he has healed me. I’m not trying to force my beliefs down your throats, but for me my faith in God has been the number one factor in my recovery. I respect everyone’s opinion. Believe in whatever you want, this is what I believe has worked for me.

I could literally go on for hours about pssd because it’s something that consumed my whole life for so long. Nowadays I try and stay off this forum as it brings back some very bad memories and I find a lot of the posts to be toxic, but occasionally I will check back in. There’s really zero need for me to come on this forum anymore, and I now understand why so many people who recover never report back, so much respect to the people who do post their success stories here. I try not to think about pssd anymore, I have moved on and am very happy with my life. The only times I sometimes get upset about it is when I get into a bad wave for a couple of days, but it’s only a reminder of how far I’ve actually come. I used to be in a ‘wave’ the majority of the time with occasional good windows, now it’s the complete opposite. I’m so proud of this hell I have been able to overcome. PSSD has literally changed my whole perspective on life and the things I take for granted. It’s too much to write here so maybe in another post, but it has definitely changed me for the better. I know I will continue to make good progress with time because it’s still only my second year with pssd, my improvements have been basically all natural, and lastly because I truely BELIEVE I will heal.

Stay strong everyone, I am praying for you all. So much can change in just 1 year so hang in there. Seriously I thought I was done for, but now here I am at the peak of my life; the happiest I have ever been. PSSD has been a truely humbling experience and when you reach this level I am at you will understand what I mean. Dangerwood out

God bless you Dangerwood!
Recovery is possible, expecially from people like you that gives hope to everybody!
I hope you' ll come here every now and then if people wants to ask you something more.
Good luck for everything!

[chemistry]

Thanks for coming back and posting your story man. Although my experience was basically the opposite of yours, I really appreciate seeing people improving naturally over time. I wish this was the case for everyone with PSSD, but its nice to see that this is a real possibility and it can happen to some of us on the forum.

Take care

[apachuri]

Your story sounds so similar to mine. I took citalopram though and I'm assuming a much higher dose. I have those "waves" you referred to, but I've been calling them "cycles" all these years. I'm in the part right now where I'm getting more and more frequent "waves" of improvements that are lasting longer. Your PSSD symptoms sound similar to mine as well. You got better at 2 years and I started to get more waves between 5-6 years. It's probably due to me being on 60mg of Citalopram for 8-9 months.