Major crash after healing for almost 4 years
Posted: Thu Dec 01, 2022 11:58 am
Hey guys,
I‘ve had pssd for almost 4 years and over the years I got really better. It was so gradual and slow that I almost didn’t realize it but looking back I really got a lot better over those 4 years. My sex life was the best it has ever been 1 month ago even better than before pssd. It’s kind of hard to describe but since loosing a lot of sensibility in my clitoris my vagina made up for it. It was really sensible and I was at a point where I was in peace with this condition even though it never returned to my pre ssri state.
But since one month every progress was stolen from me and I‘m even worse off now than in the beginning of getting pssd.
This is how it happened:
I had to take antibiotics for a vaginal infection. I was thinking about taking them for MONTHS. I was scared of making anything worse, because y‘all know that anything can make this condition worse. But this infection was already persisting for months so I decided to give some antibiotics that you put directly in the vagina instead of taking orally a chance. Since I checked the forum/Reddit and generally the internet if anyone experienced a crash from this and I didn’t find anything I was okay to take it. I was really scared but all the 6 days of taking them everything was normal. Then on the last day of taking them I drank an arab coffee with Cardamom. At this time I didn’t know that there was Cardamom inside because I already read before here on the forum that it can cause crashes and I would not have drank it if I had known. So then the following days my libido declined to almost nothing.. which is really weird because even with pssd my libido was always fine. My main symptoms were always the genital numbness. After a few more days I start getting more numb than usual, I had this little part on my clitoris that was still sensible before that but then it also went numb and I started panicking. First I thought it was the meds but then I also read that there was Cardamom in the coffee and I really can’t tell what caused it. I tried to keep calm and wait if it would get better on its own but instead of getting better it got worse. I literally lost the last part of my clitoris that was sensible. Over the next two weeks the tissue started to disappear. Now there is literally nothing sensible left anymore only the tiniest bit but I really have to use a lot of friction and pressure to feel any kind of pleasure. My vagina is also completely numb. I had sex with my boyfriend today for the first time in two weeks and I wish I could cry because it felt like NOTHING when we were having sex. But I can’t even really cry because also my emotions are kind of numbed. And I also noticed that I just can’t feel my whole lower body so good. I even when I go to the toilet it’s hard to control the contractions.
I am devastated and desperate for hope. I try to stay positive because there’s no other option for me but I would be very happy for every answer here. Maybe someone experienced something similar? I feel so lost right now.. AGAIN. The worst thing is that I had already accepted my pssd state, I learned how to live with it and then it gets worse
What do you think caused this crash? The antibiotics or the Cardamom in the coffee? I know it’s just speculation because I can’t tell myself but I‘m curious about your opinions.
P.S.: The antibiotics were called Fluomizin (active substance: Dequalinium chloride )
I‘ve had pssd for almost 4 years and over the years I got really better. It was so gradual and slow that I almost didn’t realize it but looking back I really got a lot better over those 4 years. My sex life was the best it has ever been 1 month ago even better than before pssd. It’s kind of hard to describe but since loosing a lot of sensibility in my clitoris my vagina made up for it. It was really sensible and I was at a point where I was in peace with this condition even though it never returned to my pre ssri state.
But since one month every progress was stolen from me and I‘m even worse off now than in the beginning of getting pssd.
This is how it happened:
I had to take antibiotics for a vaginal infection. I was thinking about taking them for MONTHS. I was scared of making anything worse, because y‘all know that anything can make this condition worse. But this infection was already persisting for months so I decided to give some antibiotics that you put directly in the vagina instead of taking orally a chance. Since I checked the forum/Reddit and generally the internet if anyone experienced a crash from this and I didn’t find anything I was okay to take it. I was really scared but all the 6 days of taking them everything was normal. Then on the last day of taking them I drank an arab coffee with Cardamom. At this time I didn’t know that there was Cardamom inside because I already read before here on the forum that it can cause crashes and I would not have drank it if I had known. So then the following days my libido declined to almost nothing.. which is really weird because even with pssd my libido was always fine. My main symptoms were always the genital numbness. After a few more days I start getting more numb than usual, I had this little part on my clitoris that was still sensible before that but then it also went numb and I started panicking. First I thought it was the meds but then I also read that there was Cardamom in the coffee and I really can’t tell what caused it. I tried to keep calm and wait if it would get better on its own but instead of getting better it got worse. I literally lost the last part of my clitoris that was sensible. Over the next two weeks the tissue started to disappear. Now there is literally nothing sensible left anymore only the tiniest bit but I really have to use a lot of friction and pressure to feel any kind of pleasure. My vagina is also completely numb. I had sex with my boyfriend today for the first time in two weeks and I wish I could cry because it felt like NOTHING when we were having sex. But I can’t even really cry because also my emotions are kind of numbed. And I also noticed that I just can’t feel my whole lower body so good. I even when I go to the toilet it’s hard to control the contractions.
I am devastated and desperate for hope. I try to stay positive because there’s no other option for me but I would be very happy for every answer here. Maybe someone experienced something similar? I feel so lost right now.. AGAIN. The worst thing is that I had already accepted my pssd state, I learned how to live with it and then it gets worse
What do you think caused this crash? The antibiotics or the Cardamom in the coffee? I know it’s just speculation because I can’t tell myself but I‘m curious about your opinions.
P.S.: The antibiotics were called Fluomizin (active substance: Dequalinium chloride )