You're so so right. You feel like a failure all the time. It's a sick-feeling inside all the time. PSSD has ruined my last two longterm relationships. It causes a rot in you, in her. It wasn't the sole reason in either case but its presence eroded the fabric beneath the relationships. As a man...you need to be passionate. and if you fail all the time...you never feel like a true man.Ghost wrote:One of the hardest parts about this is after you find a girl that you really love, you feel like you're letting her down. You want to give her the world, but there's one thing that you can't. It's the most intimate part of the relationship. It's something that you used to take for granted, but now have to worry about. That's shitty. Even though you know that the other person will be okay with it, you still want to be able to give them something that you can't.
In the first, it was three years after CTing Prozac. I had bad PSSD. Really bad. But somehow managed to have sex on very rare occasions without using any erection aids. I had no libido but with a combo of foreplay and fiddling, I could manage to have sex. But I rarely WANTED it. Second one started less than a year after CTing Citalopram/Prozac. I NEVER had 'normal' sex with her. My stimulation levels were SO low. But Viagra worked real well. But that spontaneity you need...depressing. Lots of sex, though. Just no real arousal or pleasure feeling.
Now I'm back alone. It's such a horrible thing to look upon. With PSSD...you feel like a lesser man. You get scared of getting into relationships (and not being big-headed, but I am a tall, attractive man who the ladies love lots). It's a curse. I am the most equipped...but I am the least equipped. I want to date again soon...but I am frightened. I am weak. I feel incapable. I just see failure. It is a fucking nightmare.